I messed up

I wanted to do some school work yesterday, but I was not feeling it. I have two classes that I absolutely hate this semester. I always make a to-do list the day before. Sometimes I complete everything on the list, sometimes I do half of the stuff on the list and other times I don't do anything on the list. When I don't do anything productive in a day, I get real depressed. I am real hard on myself. I beat myself up. I end up in a downward spiral. I won't even make a list for the next 2-3 days. Is this how people feel on a diet sometimes? "I messed up and ate a couple of French fries. I might as well eat a hamburger, drink some soda and eat an entire chocolate cake by myself. If I am going to mess up, I might as well mess up BIG." I changed my mind. I am not doing a blog every weekday. Who knows when the next one will be? Change subject: Twice this week I worried about something. Sometimes a person can worry so much that they get sick at their stomach. That did not happen to me this week. It is very rare for that to happen to me. I worry a little bit and then I just tell myself "screw it. It is out of your hands anyways. Don't worry over something you have no control over!." I noticed that most things I worry about never come true anyways. There has been times in my life when I worried that I was going to have a bad day at work. I worried that something was going to happen during the team meeting or the district manager that I don't like is going to show up unannounced. Those things never happened and I ended up having the best day of work. It ended up being better than other days! It was total opposite of what I imagined in my mind.